I'm back! I have been reading lots more about Orthodoxy and finding the true Church. These are the books I have read so far: Orthodox Way (Ware) The Way, what every protestant should know about the Orthodox Church (Clark Carlton) Evangelical is not Enough (Thomas Howard) and I have literally about 10 pages to go on Clark Carlton's The life, orthodox doctrine of salvation. I have also read some things about Catholicism (Rome Sweet Home, and Reasons to Believe by Scott Hahn). I'm trying to get to grips with the Orthodox view of salvation but I am having some problems.
The books I have read say that Orthodoxy rejects the 'legalistic' view of salvation as put forward by Protestants and Catholics, and I know that Orthodoxy say that Jesus is the Saviour. But if Jesus is the Saviour but he didn't take on our sin on the cross, then what did he save us from? Reading The Life I see that Carlton is saying that Jesus defeated death etc but how? Did he come to live a life to be an example and encouragement for us? What was he doing on the Cross? Also, I have read verses in the Bible such as 'for you know what price was paid for you' and I think even a verse describing the Christian who is seen as 'not guilty' in God's eyes because of Jesus, surely this suggests a 'legalistic' salvation? (unfortunately I can't remember the book or chapter of the verses, will try to find them and get back to you).
On the other hand, I think what Carlton says in The Life about how God doesn't change helped me make sense of Theosis. And I think Theosis makes a lot of sense as I think nearly every Christian believes that God's grace changes them in some way, and the fact that Christians believe in being spiritually 'immature' and spiritually 'mature' shows that they acknowledge growth in the faith.
Thank you so much for your prayer and advice, this forum is really important for me because otherwise I would be completely alone in my studies. It would be great to hear 'testimonies' of how others have come to the Orthodox faith, sometimes I feel really frustrated about how I am 'stuck in the middle' I'm not Protestant, not Catholic and not Orthodox and sometimes I honestly have no clue where God wants me to go. When I try to talk to my Christian friends I feel really down because we don't share the need to find Christ's true Church and I feel like a traitor that I am even doubting Evangelicalism. Some words of encouragement would be good!
I've got Clark Carlton's The Truth what every Roman Catholic should know about the Orthodox Church next in line, and 'A Tiny step away from giant faith' written by a 17 year old girl who searched for the truth and found Orthodoxy, so seems quite appropriate for me!
PS Marc, thanks for your reply, would be great to know more about how you discovered Orthodoxy, what drew you to Orthodoxy rather than any other way?