Yes, Vaughan was correct.
What Jackie-Sarah wrote earlier is profoundly true - ask Him to show you the way - then wait and follow. I don't claim it is easy, whatever 'easy' means - but He is the bread of life, and those who eat of that bread will not die, but will, rather, be transformed and, in the end, be made new.
At the heart of our Christian life is our encounter with the Incarnate Lord - He is always there, but where are we? Our relationship with Him is the one that transforms us. Love so amazing, so divine, demands our all, to paraphrase the hymn. In return, it gives us everything.
For me there is no incompatibility between intellect and faith - where that appears so it is because my intellect is deficient insofar as it is not the tool through which to apprehend the mysteries of the faith. That is not to say it is not important to read and to think and to discuss; no Christian Church is more based on Holy Tradition than the Orthodox; but it is vital to realise that Orthodoxy engages all of our senses, which is why our prayer life is so important. All that we have been given we need to lay at His feet; we know the fate of the steward who buries his talent and does not use it out of fear.
My prayers, as those of others, are with you, Mark.
In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. (1 John 4:10)