I know that that John Charnley suggested one of our priests might help you, and Father Gregory has offerred some thoughts to you here.
However, Father Gregory is in Australia, so you may wish to contact a priest who is a bit closer for a face to face session at some point. You can locate our clergy on the BOC website, and depending where you live there may be one close to you. Alternatively, you may care to contact Father Simon Smyth who has much material to send to enquirers, and he is most willing to respond if you let him have your address. He is at: <!-- e --><a href="mailto:firstname.lastname@example.org">email@example.com</a><!-- e -->
With love and prayers,